Will You Die Alone With Me?

Life didn’t turn out the way I wanted 

My best decisions left me haunted 

With this idea that I was safer 

away from those that make me waver

You claimed to love me as I am 

But alone you never acted like a fan

Was it love or need for a companion 

To please you, myself I did abandon

Constantly questioning my use

Disdain turned to pain from your abuse

Lamed and drained

Barely remembering my own name

So I don’t trust that I won’t be betrayed 

Whether I leave or if I stayed

I’ll remind myself that this way I can stay free

But still I’ll ask you to die alone with me